Tagebuch einer Erzieherin
1904
Dolorosa
Leipziger : Verlag
German
Novel
206pp
Bisexual, Erotica
She had remained a tender mother through everything. To her little girls she had remained the same as she always was: a gentle, understanding mother. In her salons her eyes flashed wildly and cruelly, her voice sounded hard like a diamond, her delicate hand ruthlessly wielded the whip, her imagination, which had become vicious, knew how to invent monstrous humiliations for the beasts, as they called all men; in her children's chambers the sparkling eyes grew mild, like sky blue. (tr. Google)
Summary
A novel themed on motherhood insterpersed with the diary entries of its protagonist, Kamilla Kramm. Her first love, a young girl she was the governess of, grows up to marry a man. Kamilla becomes governess to a different young girl, who she has a brief confusion of maternal and romantic feelings for in addition to a burning love for the girl's father, Leopold von Buchwald. In addition, her anger mixes with attraction towards von Buchwald's female mistress. Finally, after marrying a man she did not love, she enters a sadomasochistic relationship with her husband's male friend, Karl Wolf.
More Info
Written by Maria Eichorn as Dolorosa.
Content & Trigger Warnings
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PEDOPHILIA: The protagonist, a 19 year-old governess, and one of her students, a 13 year-old girl, fall in love. Later, she has a brief romantic fancy at about 22 when she is assigned to the next girl, an 11 year-old with the developmental age of 6.
SUICIDAL IDEATION: Briefly at the advent of Ch. 5 over jealousy for Herr von Buchwald's mistress.
SUICIDE: The protagonist shoots her children and herself at the very end.
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